January 2009
Why does every song I hear remind me of you?
“Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy”
I promise that I’ll never leave you alone. I wish to hear these words from anyone, and I pray that they mean it.
…and I’m begging you to be my escape.
I hate that you know I need you and still don’t care.
“Always, you’re my mind. And if I can’t sleep without you, then why would I even try.”
I hate that you can live without me.
A lot of people have been telling me they miss me lately. I guess I’m making myself unavailable to the wrong people…
I’m still waiting for, you to be the one i’m waiting for.
i believe this, but I’m still scared.
I hate Facebook, it just shows me all the parties I wasn’t invited to. I also hate being talked down to, if you think you can do it better, do it your damn self. Fuck you.
Working on deleting myself. If i don’t need you, i won’t miss you when you’re gone. I’ll live my life all alone.
This is what I hoped for so badly for 09, and it was almost in my reach. As I type this he signed on, I thought I deleted his screen name. I’m going to ignore that “sign.”
I wonder if I’d be happier with a successful business or a successful relationship?
It’s biblical how fucked my sleep can be.
This is the last 11:11 wish I’ll waste on you.
I love nights where I remember I’m still fun to be around & I do sometimes make good choices. But i’d still fuck that kid…