June 2008
I’m sorry i’m not a better friend. I really try to be.
It’s the worst feeling in the world to constantly feel like everyone hates you. I wish i could make it stop.
I think my problem is i don’t have anything to look forward to for three weeks… Or maybe i’m just about to kick off month 6 of depression.
Zack is right… Facebook ruins perceptions. Theres alot of peoples last names i never wanted to know haha.
Regardless on how famous someone is… You know you’re legit friends when they introduce you by name to family, girlfriends or old friends.
If you want something done, you have to do it yourself. life motto.
I keep forgetting things people ask me to do and i get angrier at myself than anyone else could. I’m sorry i keep letting everyone down.
I thank god for the people that put up with me on a daily basis. I’m slowly realizing that i hate myself.
“Good to know if i ever need attention all i have to do is die” i keep repeating that and listening to that song. I don’t know why…
My mommy moved my fan closer to me when i was asleep because i was sweating. I love my mommy.
I guess i have to figure out if the few moments of happiness outweigh the sadness and if so… How long will it be enough?
I get it… Love is forever. Fuck you and your diamonds.
Some days i feel like i can take over the world. Other days i don’t even want to be in it.
“We accept the love we think we deserve”
I just want to be invited, included, remembered. It’s that simple.
I pressed send and i paused. It means i’m really doing this… I didn’t realize how nervous i was til that exact moment. Take a deep breath.
FAVORITE band is in town tonight but i’m afraid to drive in the city. Soon, one of my fav boys will be in DC. Can’t drive on the highway…
I’ve been seeing this alot lately and i agree… I’m done with the whole effort thing with so many people and so many situations.
Everything that is supposed to make me happy in life seems to make me sad more. I guess that says something about my choices or my life.
It’s hard to believe that life goes on when you need a break. If only time could stand still…
It’s sad when you’re so used to someone not being around that you no longer miss them. This happens too much in my life.
People should never get used to bad things. Including me.
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and...
But… if the people change does the situation change?
Sometimes i feel like i’ve learned every life lesson at the age 18. I dunno if that’s good or bad or i might just be jaded.
Eventually, every storm has to end.
Sadly the ONLY criteria i honestly ask in a boy is that he likes me. I know that’s terrible but the phrase better than nothing comes to mind
I feel like i’ve put my personal well-being on hold for the last 2 weeks. Gotta catch myself before my body breaks down. Live hard die hard.
You sit there in your heartache Waiting on some beautiful boy to Save you from your old ways These lyrics reminded me of myself. That makes me kind of sad.
Sometimes i go places and i feel like i’m playing the sims. I can’t accurately describe it but if you play you’ll understand.
Maybe i’ve lost faith in human beings. Maybe i suck. Only thing you need to know in life i learned in econ: “people respond to incentives”
No matter how hard i work i constantly feel like a failure. One day i hope this feeling will subside. I’ll never be good enough for myself.
I texted a member of every band on a tour and every one texted me back. I’m sad i couldn’t get on the list but that made me feel good.
Listening to last years compilation… It makes me sad that the best songs on the CD are by bands that broke up.
Loose ends need to be tied. If they’re not, it literally sends my body into turmoil, like currently. This is what they call anxiety.
I honestly believe i need my own tv show. This type of thing doesn’t happen to everyone. Either God loves me or is punishing me.
When you become a parent and people mention parents actions. Do you first think of your children or your own parents?
“And you two are very beautiful girls… But you have amazing personalities that a lot of people never get to… So if they all stick with the looks, there’s millions of pretty girls in the world. So you guys just have shit luck, and shouldn’t play the lotto. But be thankful for your one in a million personalities… (which is hysterical to say about two people so...
After watching the oscars and now watching the mtv movie awards I haven’t seen 90% of these movies. Good or bad? I should get out more.
My daddy used to call me pumpkin when i was little. He hasn’t in years. I’m pretty sure my family doesn’t even like me half the time.
When i was little i told my mom i no longer wanted allowance because she kept taking it away as punishment. Everything good goes bad.
Some days, if it wasn’t for my magazine, i’d give up on existence. It’s the one thing i actually do right in life. Friends, boys, money, school, parents; not so much
I’m worried that my little brother is going to be jealous of his best friend in a year or two.
All it takes is seeing a few people that want to see me. No ulterior motives. They just enjoy my company. I love my friends a lot.
