Christine Can't Call

“She was desperate and she was choosey at the same time and, in a way, beautiful, but she didn’t have quite enough going for her to become what she imagined herself to be.”
— Charles Bukowski

The irony of dying on your birthday.

It’s 3 days into 2014 & I already feel more stable, and in control of my life than I did in all of 2013.

Dress 96: NYE

Dress 96: NYE

oh my.

(Source: iamdonald, via yourladyganja)

I don’t know where you’re going but do you have room for one more troubled soul?

I don’t know where I’m going but I don’t think I’m coming home.

Things I Have:

  • 3 months salary saved
  • 4 free Southwest flights
  • 10 paid vacation days

Things I Don’t Have:

  • Anyone to go on vacation with.

My entire life is one big first world problem.

I think I’ve decided I’m going to save up to buy a house in the next 4 years.

I like to be able to put 20% down…

Lord, I’m discouraged. She says she’s sick, but won’t get specific.

Lord, I’m sorry to question your wisdom but my faith has been wavering. Won’t you show me a sign and let me know that you’re listening?

(Source: Spotify)

2013 has been awful. 2013 has been awful. 2013 has been awful. 2013 has been awful. I need to go. 2013 has been awful. 2013 has been awful. I told a boy I love him. Then I told him I don’t ever want to talk to him again. 2013 has been awful. 2013 has been awful. I need to get out of here. 2013 has been awful. I need to finish this paper so this semester can be over. 2013 has been awful. I need to get away from this place. 2013 has been awful. I just can’t. I just can’t. I just can’t. I just… 2013 has been awful. I have nothing to show for it. I have nothing to show for it. I have nothing to show for it. I have nothing to show for it. 2013 has been awful. I just… I just can’t. I can’t. 2013 has been awful. I need to go. I need to go. I need to go. 2013 has been awful. 2013 has been awful. I just need to go. I don’t think I can last. I need to go. 2013 has been awful. 2013 has been awful. Seven months. I need to make it 7 months. I can make it 7 months. I need to. 2013 has been awful. I can’t run away. I’ll be a failure wherever I go. 2013 has been awful. I need to go. I need to go. I need to sleep. I should go to sleep. 2013 has been awful. I just… I just can’t.

I spent this year as a ghost and I’m not sure where home is anymore.